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Moments.

  Sometimes, for no good reason at all, my world goes grey. I fall into myself, losing site of the things right in front of me. I so helplessly watch as I keep tumbling down this path I didn’t even chose to take, wondering when again I will see the light of day. Sometimes it’s minutes, sometimes it’s months. As I now am embarking on this long overdue journey towards recovery, I realize I am not as helpless as I once thought. In fact, I know now that the power lies in my hands, that I have the ability to dig my way out of this pit. Where I once saw a patch of weeds, I now see a garden. Today, I saw my world beginning to fade. I sat on my bed, laptop blaring, scrolling through my phone, but not hearing or seeing a word of any of it. I caught myself. I fought the urge to go to bed at 7pm and give it my best shot tomorrow, but why should my happiness wait …